Writing has never been a considerably hard assignment to complete. I enjoy writing a lot and consider myself a very good writer, since I have been published in books and magazines a few times. During this first semester, I have been asked by a few teachers to complete reading and writing assignments. Most were not that enjoyable, leaving a small few as pleasurable.
For my Discovery New York class, we were asked around Halloween to read one of my favorite Halloween themed stories, The Legend of Sleepy Hallow. We were given a weekend to read the eleven page story and I felt like this assignment was right up my ally. There were no writing assignments after, but there was a classroom discussion. I felt like this was one assignment that I would really get my imagination into and enjoy. Another assignment that I enjoyed was when I had to create a brochure of a place in NYC. I choose Jekyll and Hyde Club and Restaurant. I love to be creative, which is why I am an elementary education major.
In this English class, there were a few essays that I did enjoy writing. I enjoyed one of the first essays we wrote about space. I felt like I could take that topic anywhere I wanted to and I did not feel scared to express my own opinion or let the reader into my somewhat twisted and scarred mind. Another assignment I enjoyed was writing the blogs. I felt that the blogs let me express my own writing and have it posted for everyone to read. My goal in life is to have a book deal with a great publishing company, and having my work posted online on my blog could help me achieve that goal. Also, with my blog I liked that I could write anything that I want to write without getting penalized for it. I could express my views on anything that I wanted to without criticism.
Very few classes that I am currently taken do not have assignments that I could let my imagination flow or have anything that I could get myself into. I felt that I did not work to my potential during the assignments that did not catch my full interest. I know that personally it is hard for a teacher to make an assignment that I enjoy completing. My strengths are my imagination and my ability to put my emotions down on paper. I know my weaknesses though are that I do not always proofread everything and that I do sometimes have an ego about my writing ability. Writing is my passion and do consider myself a very good writer. I do believe that I am meant to write and I hope to make it my career.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Intelligence in Music
When you listen to music, how often do you stop and think about what the lyrics mean? How often do you think about the structure of the song? With popular music today it seems to me that most of the songs are about love, sex, and even drugs. When heavy metal was at its prime in the late 1980’s, lyrical content of songs ranged from the above topics to social commentary, politics, religion, and war. Mainstream music has always had simple beats with catchy hooks. I intend to prove to you, the reader, that music that is referred to as underground is actually more intelligent. It may not have sold as many records but it makes better lyrical content and better and more original song structure then music of today.
Popular music throughout the world is the most commercially successful. It sells more records as a genre than any other genre of music. When you take a closer look at pop music what exactly is there? Why is it so popular? In my opinion it is not what is there but rather what is not there. Popular music is broken down into a single riff, or loop, basically rhythm and not too complicated, which repeats through most of the song. That one loop makes up the intro to the song and the verse. The song then has a chorus. The chorus will have a different loop then that of the verse. The two are then connected with the bridge, which is also a breakdown of the other loops. This basic song structure has been selling records for years.
Well with the music and structure being as simple and basic as it is surely the lyrics must be meaningful right? If you were to ask me, I would tell you no. However meaningful lyrics can be anything. People interpret lyrics of songs to how they interpret anything, whatever will make them feel better, and help them through a rough time. I think I noticed a trend to the music and vocal styles that is considered popular today, hip hop. It seems to me artist of hip hop make a really catchy chorus with a great melody and that’s how they sell their records and make their millions. The song I noticed this on is titled Ridin’ by Chamillionaire. The overall meaning behind this popular song is racial profiling by police. The song has a very catchy chorus and a very nice flow to how Chamillionaire says what he has to say. However if you actually listen to the lyrics of the song he gives reasons as to why he is being pulled over. In the second verse of the song he says:
“Doin' a hundred while I come from the block
And rollin another one up;
We livin' like we ain't givin' a f@#$
I got a revolver in my right hand;
40 oz on my lap, freezing my balls
Roll a n#$&* tree, green leaves and all.”
Now to me I think driving 100 miles an hour gives the police the right to pull you over. Within his own song he contradicts himself because yes, maybe the police do racially profile, but if they do pull him over there going to find beer, marijuana, and even a gun.
Not all popular music is like hip hop though. There is music from artist like Britney Spears. Britney made a name for herself with catchy songs and music videos. She sold millions of records and was considered to be nonthreatening. Her songs where all about broken hearts, love, sex and any other issue any teenage girl would go through. A genius way to sell records I think. Her music however has the same pop music breakdown that is both still seen today, and was all through pop music before.
Heavy Metal first came onto the scene in 1970 with the Black Sabbath self titled debut. Even that first album had a song on it that protested war. The song was entitled Wicked World and its lyrics ask why with all the disease in the world, why are we sending people to the moon? Now if you skip ahead to when metal was at its most popular, the late 1980’s. I am referring to one album in particular from 1986; Megadeth’s Peace Sells…But Whose Buying? The title track delivers a great social commentary from the day. The song is broken into two verses which all ask rhetorical questions that are answered in the next line. All the questions in the verses are questions directed to the metal youth at the time, such as religion- “What do you mean I don’t believe in God? I talk to him every day,” politics- “What do you mean I don’t support your system? I go to court when I have to,” and the struggle of fitting in “What do you mean I’m not kind? Just not your kind.” Many other bands have made statements through their music, for example Nuclear Assault has a song entitled Brainwashed which is about the media corrupting the minds of youth to think how the government wants them to think even recently with System of a Down’s Toxicity album that makes statements about the overcrowding in prisons, the dependency on drugs and weapons.
Not only have metal lyrics been more impacted by social developments and political struggles but I feel that there song structure has been more intelligent. If you look at the song …And Justice for All by Metallica which has 9 different riffs, two guitar solos and is almost 10 minutes long I think you would agree. But it’s not just that one song many songs have more complicated song structure then pop music. Metal music also has a lot of instrumentals. Many songs that don’t even have lyrics just fancy fretwork (guitars) and blast beats with double bass (drums).
In the end whose to say what music is more intelligent. Of course anyone person would have a biased view based on the music of their choice. In the end I think that both musicians from pop and underground metal are stereotyped as hip hop gangsters, pop divas, or long haired Satanists. I think it is actually up to the fans to decide who is more intelligent. In my eyes they are equal because pop music manages to make millions upon millions of dollars with simple basic song structure and lyrics so they must be doing something right. As for metal, well even though the fan base is much smaller, I find the fans to be a lot more loyal to those bands they truly love.
Popular music throughout the world is the most commercially successful. It sells more records as a genre than any other genre of music. When you take a closer look at pop music what exactly is there? Why is it so popular? In my opinion it is not what is there but rather what is not there. Popular music is broken down into a single riff, or loop, basically rhythm and not too complicated, which repeats through most of the song. That one loop makes up the intro to the song and the verse. The song then has a chorus. The chorus will have a different loop then that of the verse. The two are then connected with the bridge, which is also a breakdown of the other loops. This basic song structure has been selling records for years.
Well with the music and structure being as simple and basic as it is surely the lyrics must be meaningful right? If you were to ask me, I would tell you no. However meaningful lyrics can be anything. People interpret lyrics of songs to how they interpret anything, whatever will make them feel better, and help them through a rough time. I think I noticed a trend to the music and vocal styles that is considered popular today, hip hop. It seems to me artist of hip hop make a really catchy chorus with a great melody and that’s how they sell their records and make their millions. The song I noticed this on is titled Ridin’ by Chamillionaire. The overall meaning behind this popular song is racial profiling by police. The song has a very catchy chorus and a very nice flow to how Chamillionaire says what he has to say. However if you actually listen to the lyrics of the song he gives reasons as to why he is being pulled over. In the second verse of the song he says:
“Doin' a hundred while I come from the block
And rollin another one up;
We livin' like we ain't givin' a f@#$
I got a revolver in my right hand;
40 oz on my lap, freezing my balls
Roll a n#$&* tree, green leaves and all.”
Now to me I think driving 100 miles an hour gives the police the right to pull you over. Within his own song he contradicts himself because yes, maybe the police do racially profile, but if they do pull him over there going to find beer, marijuana, and even a gun.
Not all popular music is like hip hop though. There is music from artist like Britney Spears. Britney made a name for herself with catchy songs and music videos. She sold millions of records and was considered to be nonthreatening. Her songs where all about broken hearts, love, sex and any other issue any teenage girl would go through. A genius way to sell records I think. Her music however has the same pop music breakdown that is both still seen today, and was all through pop music before.
Heavy Metal first came onto the scene in 1970 with the Black Sabbath self titled debut. Even that first album had a song on it that protested war. The song was entitled Wicked World and its lyrics ask why with all the disease in the world, why are we sending people to the moon? Now if you skip ahead to when metal was at its most popular, the late 1980’s. I am referring to one album in particular from 1986; Megadeth’s Peace Sells…But Whose Buying? The title track delivers a great social commentary from the day. The song is broken into two verses which all ask rhetorical questions that are answered in the next line. All the questions in the verses are questions directed to the metal youth at the time, such as religion- “What do you mean I don’t believe in God? I talk to him every day,” politics- “What do you mean I don’t support your system? I go to court when I have to,” and the struggle of fitting in “What do you mean I’m not kind? Just not your kind.” Many other bands have made statements through their music, for example Nuclear Assault has a song entitled Brainwashed which is about the media corrupting the minds of youth to think how the government wants them to think even recently with System of a Down’s Toxicity album that makes statements about the overcrowding in prisons, the dependency on drugs and weapons.
Not only have metal lyrics been more impacted by social developments and political struggles but I feel that there song structure has been more intelligent. If you look at the song …And Justice for All by Metallica which has 9 different riffs, two guitar solos and is almost 10 minutes long I think you would agree. But it’s not just that one song many songs have more complicated song structure then pop music. Metal music also has a lot of instrumentals. Many songs that don’t even have lyrics just fancy fretwork (guitars) and blast beats with double bass (drums).
In the end whose to say what music is more intelligent. Of course anyone person would have a biased view based on the music of their choice. In the end I think that both musicians from pop and underground metal are stereotyped as hip hop gangsters, pop divas, or long haired Satanists. I think it is actually up to the fans to decide who is more intelligent. In my eyes they are equal because pop music manages to make millions upon millions of dollars with simple basic song structure and lyrics so they must be doing something right. As for metal, well even though the fan base is much smaller, I find the fans to be a lot more loyal to those bands they truly love.
Christmas Tree Lighting =)
On 28 November 2007, my friends and I went to the Christmas Tree lighting in Rockefeller Center. It was not that cold out and my friends were situated in the pit in front of the tree. My boyfriend Tom flashed his lieutenant card, and got us to stand where the military’s families were. The group was Sam, Tom, my boyfriend Tom, and I. We got into the city at around 3 o’clock and began our walk to the tree. Sam and I decided to look for a Starbucks which took us an hour to find. Finally, we arrived at the tree and pushed our way up to the barricade. We saw all the singers and announcements, until finally at 9 o’clock the tree was lit. We decided to leave because there was no more excitement after the actual lighting. This was an interesting and exciting night.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Prying Eyes
Throughout my life I have had many people who try to get involved and help me change my life around. I have been sent to speak to psychotherapists and councilors, and none of them seemed to make sense of my problems. I have become used to the fact that I am damaged goods. I have been through hell and back; which not one of the therapists or councilors seem to grasp. They do not fully understand what it is like to be in the situations that I have been in. I feel like I am alone speaking about my life, which to some seems to sound like a horror tale. For me, everything I have forced to witness or experience is very real, and has shaped me as a person. I am very isolated about my emotions and have learned to not speak up.
The only way to express my feelings is through my writing. My poetry and stories are my rehab and my therapy. I am rehabilitating myself and I feel that I do not need any person’s help who will never understand me or know me. I write to release my pain and anguish, to help myself realize where I stand emotionally. I feel that the only one who can understand my agony is me.
The only way to express my feelings is through my writing. My poetry and stories are my rehab and my therapy. I am rehabilitating myself and I feel that I do not need any person’s help who will never understand me or know me. I write to release my pain and anguish, to help myself realize where I stand emotionally. I feel that the only one who can understand my agony is me.
Looking Toward the Bay
She stood there as still as she could be
With the wind blowing through her hair and with only the past she could see
All the chaos she did not intend to cause
After it happened she became stiff and paused
A few minutes later she came back to reality
Quickly and scared, she went to the cliff to flee
Again the images came rushing through her darkened mind
Unfortunately she put her soul on the line
Her sanity slowly begins to fly away
While she looks off the cliff at the unforgiving bay
Remembering the past hurt her deep inside
All she could do was regret and deny
She criticizes herself, it was all her fault
She is melting away like water with some salt
She wants to make it better, make it all go away
She looked closer to the edge and looked at the bay
The water thrashing around under the cliff
Might make all the torturous guilt lift
The waves were unforgiving and filled with abhorrence
Everything she thought now made no sense
She stood there confused contemplating life and death
Her past kept reminding her that she had nothing left
Should she or shouldn’t she jump into the bay
Just to make her shocking past go away
Her sanity is gone and is slowly decaying
She just wants a new beginning
standing there with nothing left
Living but not wanting her death
Her past haunts her decrepit mind
Hoping that her past she couldn’t find
She ran away from her hurtful past
She hopes that her life just wouldn’t last
Blaming herself makes the malice stay
She’s reminded of her past as she looks at the thrashing bay
Contemplating whether to live or die
As she look at the bay she let out a lonely sigh
Her life is worthless, she wallows in her nothingness
All she wants to do is let her past rest
Just let her past drown slowly in the bay
Making all her misery slowly lift away
She knows she can’t live her life like this
Knowing that freedom does not exist
She wants to end her life and free her soul
Destroying her past is her top goal
Annulations of her past and what reminds her of it
She’s quietly looking at the bay, at the edge of the cliff
Whether to live or whether to die
She can’t find the answers to send her spirits high
Quickly she stands and walks off the cliff
Finally her dreaded past begins to lift
With the wind blowing through her hair and with only the past she could see
All the chaos she did not intend to cause
After it happened she became stiff and paused
A few minutes later she came back to reality
Quickly and scared, she went to the cliff to flee
Again the images came rushing through her darkened mind
Unfortunately she put her soul on the line
Her sanity slowly begins to fly away
While she looks off the cliff at the unforgiving bay
Remembering the past hurt her deep inside
All she could do was regret and deny
She criticizes herself, it was all her fault
She is melting away like water with some salt
She wants to make it better, make it all go away
She looked closer to the edge and looked at the bay
The water thrashing around under the cliff
Might make all the torturous guilt lift
The waves were unforgiving and filled with abhorrence
Everything she thought now made no sense
She stood there confused contemplating life and death
Her past kept reminding her that she had nothing left
Should she or shouldn’t she jump into the bay
Just to make her shocking past go away
Her sanity is gone and is slowly decaying
She just wants a new beginning
standing there with nothing left
Living but not wanting her death
Her past haunts her decrepit mind
Hoping that her past she couldn’t find
She ran away from her hurtful past
She hopes that her life just wouldn’t last
Blaming herself makes the malice stay
She’s reminded of her past as she looks at the thrashing bay
Contemplating whether to live or die
As she look at the bay she let out a lonely sigh
Her life is worthless, she wallows in her nothingness
All she wants to do is let her past rest
Just let her past drown slowly in the bay
Making all her misery slowly lift away
She knows she can’t live her life like this
Knowing that freedom does not exist
She wants to end her life and free her soul
Destroying her past is her top goal
Annulations of her past and what reminds her of it
She’s quietly looking at the bay, at the edge of the cliff
Whether to live or whether to die
She can’t find the answers to send her spirits high
Quickly she stands and walks off the cliff
Finally her dreaded past begins to lift
Hidden Pain
Beaten and battered again, hiding my fear
Disclosing my possibility of shedding a tear
Hurt by the one whom I undoubtedly love
Even though he smacks me around and shoves
Secretly I endure the beatings from him
Crying alone, each time he bruises or scraps my skin
He mocks me each time I suddenly flinch
Then he grabs my skin with the pain of a pinch
Walking everyday with a black eye or fat lip
Or trying to hide the gash from hip to hip
Trying to hide each and every gash and scrap
And unaware of the future, painful rape
Now years later, it haunts my memory
Because of how much this emotionally scarred me
Disclosing my possibility of shedding a tear
Hurt by the one whom I undoubtedly love
Even though he smacks me around and shoves
Secretly I endure the beatings from him
Crying alone, each time he bruises or scraps my skin
He mocks me each time I suddenly flinch
Then he grabs my skin with the pain of a pinch
Walking everyday with a black eye or fat lip
Or trying to hide the gash from hip to hip
Trying to hide each and every gash and scrap
And unaware of the future, painful rape
Now years later, it haunts my memory
Because of how much this emotionally scarred me
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